Sometimes I wonder if I wear a mask or if the mask is controlling me?

 Sometimes I wonder if I wear a mask
or if the mask is controlling me?


                                     Strong, 
 Not letting you put me down....

I wear the mask that makes a grin on my face
and lies to people around you, I let no one
see through this dark brown eyes the madness
I have inside with the darkness full of nightmares of the past

I wear the mask that protects me and means
"I don't need no one to overcome my obstacles!" is the common answer
"I overcome the myself with no help!

    I like being alone!

I don't need people putting bad stuff in my head that will
make me do bad choices,

            I don't need your love!"

My shattered heart is turning closer to stone


 Sometimes I wonder if I wear a mask
or if the mask is controlling me?


                          Strong,
Not letting you put me down...

 Trapped in the twists and turns of my problems
thinking that is too hard to overcome those obstacles

I don't want them to compare other people to me


  Look she's cranky--- What an attitude!

  Look she has bad grades--- What a dumb girl

   I hide those struggles inside of me so people around
me won't know the pain I have

                        My pain,
                          But I'm not so stealth.

But in my silence and loneliness there is too much
going on inside my mind

A simple truth that needs to be heard

 I'm a human like anyone else I need support from the people
that really care for me

            I deserve the love from every human
   But I have to give the love they deserve first

 I have to take this mask off, free myself from
everything I can't get out from

         Of what's best for me!
 So I can start a better life that I've never lived before-
                            
                                                              Free from everything....